Some people call it enlightenment. Others call it waking-up or a cosmic bonk or being present to what is. No doubt there are many names for that moment when we become acutely aware of how remarkable life is and how life is remarkably short in the overall big picture of things. I'm calling my moment, "The Sudden Realization of Everything".
I do not know everything there is to know about life or about myself, but I got enough of a glimpse recently to know everything I've been avoiding, procrastinating about, and escaping from is the very thing that will set me free. And while I can't completely articulate just yet exactly what that thing is, I know it's fear-based and I can no longer ignore or pretend it doesn't exist. I'm ready and willing to dive deep into the places that both scare and surprise me.
My hope is to discover the reasons why there's always been a part of me I have not wanted to look at, accept, and love. I've been hiding out for a good long while from my writing. My commitment is to write the stories of my experiences and share all of what I know and learn here in order to support my healing process and to connect with those who are on a similar journey of their own.
As Anna Halprin says so beautifully at the end of her book, "Returning to Health with Dance, Movement and Imagery"...
"It's about living and feeling fully the whole spectrum from joy to sadness (however long that lasts) and dying with a sense of peace (whenever death comes)." Yeah, I want that.
