He Got Married

by Lisa on May 3, 2011

A few years back with a previous partner

I found out through Facebook.  Not that I was expecting a wedding invite, but learning of this information from a public website still caught me off guard.  For the past week, I’ve been chewing on a myriad of thoughts and feelings I’ve experienced since discovering the news.   I am happy for him.  I am happy for her.   I wish them happiness and happily ever after.   And…something else is there.  Residing in a corner of my heart, love remains for the man I let go of years ago.

Love remains even though we were terribly cruel to one another at times.  Love remains even though our relationship was incredibly challenging especially as it neared its ending.  Love remains long after truths are told, apologies are made, and we move on. Shouldn’t we want those we’ve loved and who’ve loved us to love again? Absolutely.  I think we also want to be remembered. And maybe that’s why I had hoped when he found someone he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, he would have let me know. He would have told me because we were friends again. He would have told me because…at one point in our lives we thought it would be the two of us together forever. Perhaps I just wanted one more time to say, “I’m sorry” and “Thank you” and “I love you” before I said “I’m so happy for you and wish you both all the best.”  

I discovered this song a couple weeks ago and the words are a fitting and beautiful portrayal of the feelings I have for my husband, James. My wish for my ex is that his new wife makes him feel like he’s the luckiest. Without a doubt, I know Rick is the kind of man who will love and adore her in such a way that she’ll feel the luckiest, too.

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Jonathan May 3, 2011 at 4:11 pm

Hmmmmm……wow – do I feel you on that one.

I love your open hearted beingness and honesty!

Jonathan

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